Hm

Even though I really love university, I miss being at high school/college so much. I think I just miss being at home when I was at school, cause it was so much more comfortable. No matter what problems you had, you always had a home to go back to. It was the peace of mind of not being able to ever see the end of your education, and just imagining being there, in your room, listening to music and hating your life forever. Now I can see an end to my education and living at home, I can’t ever see that comfortable, welcome home waiting for me at the end of the day for years, until I’ve actually settled down and I don’t have to rent a place any more. I mean home is nice, and uni is nice, but neither are actually your home. And hating your life just doesn’t feel quite so satisfying when you’re not in the comfort of your teenage bedroom.

I think that when you felt like shit in high school, it’s a different kind of shit, because your life was just so stable, and it’s just impossible to ever have that stability again. Now when you feel like shit, your whole life feels unstable, not just your mood. It’s not half as pleasant as the wallowing I’ve done in the past.

Sorry to rant

@4 months ago with 92 notes
#bedroom #comfortable #miss this more than anything #university #me